This month is painfully special. It's reality hit me yesterday, when the very intelligent Google Photos pulled up a picture from a year ago, with K smiling through an oxygen mask, very sick but having no idea of what was about to hit us in exactly 3 days.
On a side note- Photos asked me to rediscover this day, and it's machine stupidity pissed me off.
Every day in May, as we inch closer to many firsts- the first few seconds after diagnosis, first tryst with terrifying doctors and hospitals, the first dose of chemo..we are trying to stay sane.
A lot changed in the last one year, and while we were soon entering a dark dark tunnel exactly a year ago, K and I are in different parts of the world today. While I cannot wait to see him again in a few days, I also know that we need this time to contemplate and start our own healing process.
The last one year has shown our resilience but also exposed our weaknesses. What we believed to be true about ourselves turned into completely different realities, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse.
Apart from all the lessons we learnt last year, what I realise today is that time never stays the same and that's why it is our best friend and our worst enemy. So ride the wave while it lasts, and when it's gone wait for the next one with as much courage and peace as possible.
Here's hoping we rise again slowly and surely.
On a side note- Photos asked me to rediscover this day, and it's machine stupidity pissed me off.
Every day in May, as we inch closer to many firsts- the first few seconds after diagnosis, first tryst with terrifying doctors and hospitals, the first dose of chemo..we are trying to stay sane.
A lot changed in the last one year, and while we were soon entering a dark dark tunnel exactly a year ago, K and I are in different parts of the world today. While I cannot wait to see him again in a few days, I also know that we need this time to contemplate and start our own healing process.
The last one year has shown our resilience but also exposed our weaknesses. What we believed to be true about ourselves turned into completely different realities, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse.
Apart from all the lessons we learnt last year, what I realise today is that time never stays the same and that's why it is our best friend and our worst enemy. So ride the wave while it lasts, and when it's gone wait for the next one with as much courage and peace as possible.
Here's hoping we rise again slowly and surely.
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